WHERE WE TALK MORE ABOUT RESISTANCE
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Today, I want to tackle another big topic – resistance. After our last post on the nature of fear, I have been thinking a lot about how fear plays into our resistant impulses, and so I wanted to explore that relationship a bit more in this post. I realize again that this is a topic that we have spoken about many, many times in previous posts.
We would be more than happy to spend as much time as you would like on the subject of resistance. Resistance is perhaps the greatest challenge for all human persons on their journey towards remembrance.
You have said that before and I wonder why that is exactly. I mean, here we are, living our lives, doing the best we can to find our way along our path, and yet all we seem to encounter is our own resistance. Granted, due to our “metaphysical amnesia,” we’re not really ourselves, at least not completely. Our true natures – our loving, peaceful, powerful natures – are kept hidden from us through our agreement with Source and all of the other beings that have incarnated along with us, with the idea that, through the experiences we create for ourselves in our various, numerous lifetimes, we‘ll eventually, little by little, step by step, challenge by challenge, come to know and experience our true natures while we live out our lives in human form.
So far, everything that you have said is true and correct.
Right. So, why then is there sooooo much resistance to embracing our true natures, of waking up to who we really are? Why is it all sooooo, sooooo difficult? And the ego! Does the ego eventually give up or fade away or lose power, or is the resistance it creates something that we have to deal with for the rest of our born days? I mean, where does it all end!?!
Are you being funny, or have you really not been listening to everything that we have been saying to you non-stop for the past year?
I’m exaggerating for effect. Surely you’re familiar with this kind of behavior by now. It’s something we humans do from time to time when we’re feeling frustrated with a situation and we want the other person, or in this case, the other beings, to understand how strongly we feel about it.
Understood. Resistance, and your feelings around this form of human behavior, can indeed be very frustrating, for this resistance seems to stand directly in opposition to your intended goal – remembering who you really are and why you have come to the physical plane. It is fear, this resistance, pure and simple. That is what comprises it, that is what fuels it, and that is what keeps it in place. Fear.
Yes. And it’s becoming clearer and clearer to me that, at its core, this resistance is actually reluctance to engage with my true self for fear of being overwhelmed by it. This fear rises up sometimes during meditation, when I feel close to allowing the energy of my true self to flow freely through my physical form. It hasn’t happened often, but every once in a while, I’m able to get into a very relaxed state and I’ll call upon my higher self to enter my field of consciousness, and when I can allow that to happen, I’m always surprised by how enormous the energy feels to me. Big, bigger than anything I’ve ever encountered before. I can only maintain a conscious connection to it for a very short time before I start to feel overwhelmed and then I shut down the connection. It’s not that the energy of my higher self is in any way threatening. Just the opposite. It always feels very loving, very benevolent, very protective, completely aware of what my human side is feeling and completely non-judgmental about all of it. All the same, the connection, the energy flow, eventually becomes too much to bear, like too much of a good thing, if you know what I mean, and so I close it off. And that’s what happens so much of the time when we’re doing this work, this work of remembering. We get to a point where things start to become clear, and it’s very gratifying when that happens because we work so hard at it and it feels so good to have those moments of lucidity and of connection, and then almost immediately we get frightened and overwhelmed and pull back. I guess our egos are happy about that because it creates a lot of emotional drama, but for those of us who are constantly seeking that connection, it can be very frustrating and disheartening. You can sense that, can’t you?
Of course, we can sense that. As we have said to you before, we are not just sitting here on the sidelines twiddling our non-physical thumbs. We are here with you every step of the way, from resistance to connection and back again to resistance and so on and so forth. We are very familiar with this process. It is one of the hallmarks of the human journey. In a real sense, this back-and-forth that you have described – the cautious approach to connecting with the force and energy of unconditional love, the fear and resistance that arise when that connection takes hold, even if it is only for a moment, the backpedaling that follows as you shut the door that you have just opened, and then resetting yourself, a little more aware this time, a little more confident, a little more courageous, ready once again to approach the fullness of the connection with who you really are – it is this process of moving forward, then backwards, of desire alternating with fear, that drives the very mechanics behind the process of awakening. This is how you remember. This is how it proceeds. This is it!
Oh, so THIS is it!
When we say “This is it!”, we say it to you for the same reason that, in our last posting on the nature of fear, we encouraged you to allow your fear to be, to exist, to enter into your energy field without any resistance, so that you could experience it, understand it and ultimately lessen its power over you. The same dynamic holds true here. This back-and-forth that we are talking about, when we say “This is it!”, we do so as a pointer, as a guide to help you better understand and accept the true nature of a process that still brings you discomfort, a process that you believe should work in some other way, one that should be easier, less challenging, perhaps, one that should not make you feel as if you are always doing something wrong, that you are being punished for something that you have done or something that you are not doing correctly, that you are caught on some sort of hamster wheel and there is no escape. There is, in fact, a much more effective way to deal with your resistance and that is through acceptance.
I get what you’re saying, that to diminish the power of resistance, it’s better to accept the way this process work, to accept that resistance is a part of the equation. I believe that, and yet sometimes I feel as if my resistance has grown stronger since we began writing our blog together, as if the closer I get to awakening to my true self, the harder my ego works to keep it from happening. Maybe it just seems that way because I’m more aware of the resistance now. I don’t know. I’ll transcribe a conversation between all of you and myself and it will feel great while I’m doing it, and usually I can maintain the flow of your voice once I get started, but as I’ve said before, the next time I sit down to transcribe, the connection with you feels so far away, it’s almost as if I’m starting from scratch each time. And I know it’s my resistance, my fear of not being able to connect, to provide something for our readers that they will find useful and valuable, but also my fear that I may hear something that will scare me or overwhelm me. And that applies to other areas of my life, too. My resistance often feels like an invisible wall between myself and true reality, standing between me and what’s really going on behind the world that I can only perceive with my five senses. That here I am on this side, and the connection that I’m looking for is on the other side of the candy store window, if you know what I mean. It’s not just the connection I seek, but everything that goes along with it – to enjoy what I’m doing without any judgement or guilt, to feel at peace with myself and others, to experience good physical health and good financial health, to give and receive love from everyone I come in contact with. That’s what I’m after. The abundance that the Universe has to offer. All the wonderful experiences that come from knowing fully who I really am, that come from allowing that part of myself to shine through.
What we see for you is a dissolution of this wall that you speak of, that you believe stands between you and your true self. This wall does not exist, you realize that, do you not? It is an invention, a by-product of the contrast that is unique to the physical plane. You have put a lot of your time and energy into erecting and maintaining this wall. It is a symbol of your resistance to remembering who you really are and why you have come, and there is a part of you – call it your ego, if you like – that is determined to keep this wall in place. But that is not your destiny, nor the destiny of the other seven billion souls with whom you share your planet. What we see for all of you is an increased awareness of this process of awakening. “Oh, that’s what’s happening here. I’m resisting again, frightened of getting too close to my true self, of making too strong of a connection. I get it. I understand it. But that fear and resistance won’t stop me. I will continue to pursue my goal of connecting, my goal of remembering. Next time, I will get a little closer to realizing who I really am and why I have come. And even though I will probably become frightened again, and my resistance may return, the next time I won’t be quite as scared. I’ll be a little braver. And my fear will not take me so much by surprise. Because now I realize that it is all a part of the way this journey has been designed.” Once your acceptance of the process increases, you will handle the challenges in your journey with greater resolve, more focused intention, and with more understanding and forbearance. And after a time, you may even begin to enjoy yourself, which is, after all, why you are here.
Once again, this had been a very enlightening conversation. I look forward to our next one.
As do we. Until next time.
Thank you all.
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